Torn

I found a mommy for this little girl. She's a lady that lives out in a village close to here. I just dont know if I want to give her up. I'm torn. Torn between keeping her and letting her go.

Reasons that I want to keep her...

1. She's so sweet
2. Well behaved
3. smart
4. already knows the words no and down
   
5. nice looking dog
6. Avery likes playing with her
7. we love her already
8. she's already become a part of our house/life
   
9. She has NEVER peed on the floor
10. It's fate? She found me
11. companionship
    
12. I miss having a dog
13. only puppy I've ever had to sleep through the night
14. She's just such a good dog
    
15. I'm not sure about this lady that wants her, I KNOW she'll be well cared for with me
    

Reasons I want to let her go...

1. My allergies are going crazy
2. It's expensive to own a dog here (flight fees, vet is outrageous, shipping food in)
3. too busy, not enough time, she'll be in the cage alot
   
4. have to find someone to dog sit when leaving town (and we're leaving for c-mas soon)
5. she's a chewer
6. avery and I both dont really want to do the raising a puppy thing...we're used to having an old, lazy dog
7. not over losing Taboo yet
8. no yard to let her run in
   
9. not even sure that I can have a dog in this apt
10. I dont want to responsibility right now, i've got so much other stuff going on
11. Her light color means that i'll have light hair on my dark clothes and I wear alot of black
12. raising a puppy is alot of work
13. I like the idea of being 'free'...not having to always worry about going home to take care of the dog
    

I dont know...these are all of the things that pop into my head right now. Now that i've written this pro and con list, the number of items is about equal, but the pro list seems pretty superficial and unimportant. the con list seems like some pretty major important stuff. Basically, my heart wants to keep her and love her, but my head knows that logically that's not really a good idea. I think I'll make arrangements to go ahead and ship her to the village. Bummer.